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Two MonthsIt's been over two months and the pain of ur loss has yet to subside even a little. I am here in Freeport and I didn't get to see you. Oh God why is this SO hard? Why can't I stop crying, and missing him and thinking about him? If I sit too long my thoughts will go to you automatically. I've blinked back so many tears since I have been back home. I see your phone number in my cell and I can't bring myself to delete it, cause somewhere in the back of my mind I am still holding on to the hopes that one day I will call it and u will be the one on the other line.
I have just recently come to terms with the fact that you will be gone for the rest of my life. This is not a long trip away, and I won't be able to call you or to talk to you online. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. My one prayer is for God to help the pain subside, or to help me not to think of you constantly. Just saying I miss you is not conveying exactly how I feel. I think something is now missing in my life cause this can't be real!! Forever is such a long time!!! God just give me one more day, one more hour, a min, a second more with you. Just so I can see that red head again. God please!! I am so tired of crying, or trying not to cry all the time.
It's like EVERYTHING reminds me of you. Everytime I pass near the road where u died I try not to think of you the way that I imagined u must have been. Trapped in that car for so long. It seems I have become afraid of death, yet sometimes willing to embrace it, just to see u one more time!!!Bui I woulda never thought I woulda ever missed you this much..EVER...I guess I didn't realize how much u meant to me. One of the last things you said to me before I left in February to return to Turks and Caicos was " Hurry up come back from TI" I back now dread, where are you?? MAN I AM TIRED OF CRYING!!I AM TIRED OF MISSING YOU!!I AM TIRED OF GETTING THESE HEADACHES FROM HOURS OF CRYING FOR YOU!! Y CAN'T YOU COME BACK TO SPARE US ALL THIS PAIN THAT YOU ARE CAUSING?? God please give me the strength to go through the rest of my life without him...Cause I KNOW that I can't do it alone!!
P.S. I think I understand you now. I guess you were right, you WERE USUALLY right all the time anyways. I was to young and niave to get it, the reason you were the way that you were. I still admire you and I want to be like you. You taught me so much about life, and I know that I couldn't make it through that tough year without you. 트랙백이 블로그의 트랙백 URL은 다음과 같습니다. http://smileawhile242.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!478EDBCDF561D529!1444.trak 이 블로그를 참조하는 웹 로그
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