There I was reading an email and at the very bottom and very unexpectedly I see, R.I.P. Merril. Then yet again that all too familiar lump just forms in my throat and I think "Wow...He's REALLY gone." It's not just recognizing it, it is stupefication, like it was the first time I found out all over again.
I find it so strange that it hit me so hard because I still have as my sign in name on Msn Messenger, R.I.P. Merril. It gets easier with time they say...When will it get easier?? The way I see it, if it was goin to get easier they would have been back by now. Its been too long and it STILL could come as a shock to me that you are gone...
A time for everything right?? A time to be born and a time to die. Here we have people living to be 102 and they couldn't live til 25?? I'm sorry God, but it isn't making sense to me....I have yet to get the lesson that I am to learn from this!! If I have to go through this there better be something good to come from it!! Ignorance is bliss...How bout we just forgo the lesson and turn back the hands of time??? What I don't know won't hurt me!
On his website someone wrote about a brother that he lost 7 years ago and he and his family are still struggling with it. 7 YEARS!!I can't take it!! The past 6 mos have been drivin me crazy and I am left to deal with it for the rest of my life... Forever sure is a long time!! He is going to be gone FOREVER, I will be missing him FOREVER, I will NEVER see him again as long as I live!!
I miss you so much, when situations arise I think "What would Merril say?" Now your voice and your wisdom are forever hushed into eternity...
Oh what would I do for just one more day with you?
Til Violets Turn Red
Til Roses Turn Blue
Til Niagra Falls
Til The Banana Splits
Til Salt Loses Its Savour
I will miss you Til breath leaves my body and I can someday join you in that heavenly realm!!
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